Have you felt the sunshine yet today?
I haven't. Neither has the love of my life. How sad is that? We have had multiple beautiful days, and neither of us can enjoy them. Why? We are constantly crushed by the emotions that we are hiding. Everything is a secret, while still being told to all of my readers. I miss him so much, you guys. I really do. It is... a cliched, crushing feeling of pain weighing down on me all of the time. There is no escape, but yet, I'm not sure I want one. This pain... this overwhelming sense of despair that courses through me like a shock of electricity, it reminds me of just how real it all is. It is a constant reminder of my pain and my love, but also of his.
Maybe I haven't felt the sunshine. But I have felt his love. I have never felt more full of love, nor more loved than I do with him. Because of him. He is love. My love. The epitome of the whole idea of love.
I'm not okay. I won't be okay until I can see him again and feel his arms around me. But until then, I know that I have to hold on. I have to stay strong (yeah, uhmm, failing at that by the way). Alright well, I can freak out I guess. It's not okay, it won't be okay for a while. I hope it gets better, but who knows? The pain of being apart will always be there, it will always be real. It will also be a secret. Sort of. But these are things that I learn to live with.
My dear, how I love you! I love you so very much! <333
Oh how I wish I could help you girly, to make you feel better. But I know that I cannot. Because even though we both have found our Price Charmings yours has to be kept secret and I know that it would honestly kill me if I had to go through what you are. You are so strong chica. I love you♥
ReplyDeleteKenzers, thank you so much. I love you! <3
ReplyDeleteAll you have to do is keep really strong until you see him again..........if you have his number then maybe you can call him or email him on the computer..........lol.
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