That Rush!

 "Whew! My gracious, that rush is great isn't it! Heck, it could take the breath away from you! Oh, wow, that was great!"
 
   No, I am not talking about drugs or "that thing married couples do" (to quote a friend of mine). I am talking about the dopamine in your brain naturally released when you begin to like someone or get good news. For instance: Every time I see Jon, it's like BAM! Instant happy; my own personal kind of heroin! Or when I found out that I someone is following my blog!!! One follower: "Jelly". I do not know who Jelly is, but seeing a blog follower and receiving the awesome comments on some of my posts made my day! BOOM, my very own, secret marijuana.

OKAY, enough of the drug references, I am disgusting myself with them. Y'all know what rush I am talking about, yes? I am sure you do!

I have actually read in "On Relationships" of the "Teen Love Series" by Kimberly Kirberger that there is an actual addiction to the rush of dopamine you get when you first begin to like someone or start a relationship with them.

Now some people, I suppose, would not believe this. "It's just kids' stuff" my mom would probably say. However I am a believer. I believe so because there have been multiple cases in my life in which i simply got bored and was not excited by a relationship that used to be so much fun for me. I've also given up on crushes because it wasn;t exciting anymore.

HOWEVER, there have been two exceptions, and only two:

1) My relationship with mister R.J.W. and...
2) My current crush on Jon.

As a matter of fact, I have liked him since I met him. (Now I don't really believe in all of that "love at first sight" fluff, but there was something going on. "Frisson", if you will. However, that would only be if frisson were not a fleeting, passing feeling. because the feeling sure did not pass. In fact, it has stayed for a very long time. Perhaps I would be better off had it passed. It would have saved me from a lot of heartache in the future. I hear him tell me that the whole "Jon and I" thing hasn't crossed his mind; indirectly telling me that he doesn't like me. But I can't accept it. Why? I do not know. But I feel as if somehow, by some miracle, he will change his mind and like me. But that is a silly thing to wish for. Silly, silly thing. Because you see, contrary to what you might see on, say, The Disney Chanel, wishes don't come true. I am not a TV star, I am me. And it will never matter how many times I knock on wood or wish on a shooting star or whatever; it will not happen. I must resign myself and just enjoy the rush whilst it is here.(:

  "Whew! My gracious, that rush is great isn't it! Heck, it could take the breath away from you! Oh, wow, that was great!"

With Love,
   Paige♥